Feeling Fat

I feel really fat today. I mean I feel like my own fucking mini planet. Like Pluto. But cuter. I think it's because I haven't been able to get out of the house today (It's freezing) and other than yoga I haven't been really able to do anything active. I also feel really depressed today, like I'm in a fog. It just hasn't been a good day in like any way.

All I want to do today is lay down and cry. Which isn't all THAT unusual but today it's even worse. I mean, I've lived with depression since I was very young but lately it's just gotten worse. All I want to do is ball up in a corner and cry until I just wither way. It's not just emotionally painful either. It's also very physically painful.

*sigh* Loosing this weight is going to be the hardest thing I think I've ever done. I don't know if I have the strength.